It is an odd meditation on the other side of the end of a lengthy storm like this one that conjure thoughts like “is this really over?” It almost feels like it was never really real to begin with, and the repercussions have been as merciful as Christ washing my feet by a warm fire in my heart. My mind, body, spirit and soul are ever thankful tonight and again I feel almost like this is someone else’s story and I am just a witness that has prayed, interceded, and warred (as I often do) for God to do a mighty miracle and He showed up in ways that are “as usual” mind blowing.
So my question to Him on the backend of this difficult life-lesson is what were you showing me here? I have learned that we never fail a test with God we only take them over and over till we get them right. His simple yet poignant answer was “Right wanting, Right thinking and Right desires” so I have pondered that little nugget in my heart for about a month now, and see the desires of my heart have been wrong. My soul has fooled my spirit by looking for what seemed to be the right desires, but in all actuality I have been attracted to what is wrong, deceitful and controlling. To the point that I have found myself meditating on relationships and activities that I know are seductive, damaging, and full of blissful manipulation. So I am now on a determined path to having the Mind of Christ in everything I put any emotional, mental, physical and even spiritual time into. I will wake every morning from this point forward intentionally seeking joy, and with conviction and a new discipline to have right thinking and right desires in every decision I make, or the decision will be NO.
I now see where God was transforming my wanting, thinking, and desires when about a year ago He brought a little Jewish girl into my life that was facing storms far greater than mine. A violent meth addict ex that she was still in the midst of divorce from, on the verge of bankruptcy and about to lose her home, about 10 horses and a host of various other animals that she was responsible for, and a 3 year old that was about to be diagnosed with Autism as I entered their lives. She had no idea who Jesus really was, so God gave me a deep burden for this little family and I was as “Jesus” as I could be for a guy enduring his own storm of health, personal, legal, professional issues. She came to know Jesus as her Lord and savior along the way, moved to North Carolina to start a new life and got baptized on August 3rd 2014 in a Methodist church in N.C. and in the midst of losing everything material in this world just found out she is getting One Million dollars in a life insurance policy that she held for her 1st ex-husband that suddenly died of a heart attack at the age of 54. That right... she is now saved and a millionaire..... That is just how our God solves storms when we are faithful and just hold His hands and walk through them. This is one of the first female relationships where I had no self-motivations and desired nothing but to see her know the Person of Jesus and sit back as God unfolded one of the most miraculous testimonies that I have personally witnessed, and I was front and center for the wonderful ride. Amazing when we get out of God’s way and let Him AWE and WONDER!!!
“Sometimes The
Lord calms the storm and sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms His child”
